Masculine, feminine. Light, dark. Positive, negative. Warm, cold — I am beginning to understand the Universe in terms of the issue of polarity, my dear Addict friends. Moreover, I am trying to make polarity work for me, as opposed to against me.

I understand now that I am always going to be attracted to those things and people who possess what I lack. Qualities like a strong backbone, good boundaries, a commanding presence, and maybe even being good at numbers, or the ability to separate emotion from a situation and remain calm, no matter what. People of principle, who seem like they're standing sure and solid, even in the midst of life's constant storms and pressures. People who stay true to what they believe in, no matter what sort of chaos, drama, or threats to life and limb are unfolding all around them!

As for me? I have not been able to trust myself, because I've been too easily swayed by the winds of emotion -- my allegiances bending this way and that, depending on the week, the day, or sometimes even the hour. "I Love You, I Hate You, Come Here, Go Away," is, I believe, a book title about the emotional extremes of borderline personality. But really, it could refer to anyone with the self-diagnosed Worst Trust Issues on the Planet, which I find myself still afflicted by, on the whole.

I wish that the universal principle of polarity extended to trust issues, because then I might find myself in relationships with the sorts of benevolent and trusting people who lack the problems of trust that I struggle with. How I have longed to find fellowship with the kinds of trustworthy people who would be equipped to help me feel more comfortable about beginning to trust! As it stands, I have sought counsel and solace from the kinds of people who are just like me.

They play the push/pull game; they retreat to their own private Universe rather than participate in an honest conversations; and they re-emerge like butterflies to face me, yet they are still all wrapped up in a protective cocoon of self-centeredness.

I know I can't personalize these people’s treatment of me too intimately, since they apparently suffer from the same fundamental problem I do. As addicts (even recovering ones), we all come programmed with the default setting of The Worst Trust Issues on the Planet.

But this particular Rule of True Love reminds me that I don't have to stay mired in trust issues. Not when there's a clear and different path of True Love set out right before me! Because wherever there is darkness, those who want True Love press on, in the search for LIGHT.

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